lately things that had happened was really sad
like i had said this term is gonna be a very bad term for me
at times where you wish time will past faster but it just
took it's own sweet time to past but when you dun want
it to past so fast it just go like a areoplane
time past so fast and i know i can nv rewind the time back again
but to accept the fact that it had past already.
everyone is like leaving me on monday seniors left and today
my maid left which means i got to do my own chores which i believe
i will not do and my mother will start nagging at me
who wll be the next to leave me?
why can't they all just leave at the same time so save my tears
[it had been running like water tap]
and then i can concentrated to study.
i just hope my brain can't thing of anything other than studies
a piece of good news i got 194 for standing broad jump.
anyway i am trying a avoid alot of ppl lately
but the more i try to avoid the more i see
i do not hope for anything anymore but just to have a better life.
is this the life god have for me?

today,
i was feeling gay[ happy] this morning so i tied my hair to school
no standard test.
got one free period cause no teacher came in so
i started to do notes but fell asleep.
for today accounts i listerned
although i didn't quite understand but i did try
finally for chinese we dun have any more chinese compo
me and jeannette started playing a game writing
male and female names. we keep exchanging papers
but when the paper is wif jean then i can think of the name
miss yeo[english teacher] woke me up in class
to do the stupid correction
when i am having this wonderful dream.
maybe that spoiled my day.
michelle belle was making alot of noise today
and during maths she wanted me to say sorry to her
so during english period end she was making a big fuss
abt dun noe wat at the back of the class with may, natelie and natassia
and i heard my name in it. so went to the back of the class,
found out wat happened then i asked for wat she perice so many
ear hole with so many ear stick
then say maybe she should also perice her nipple too
so can but ear stick there too.
after that end of school
went to study wif amira and rachel.
at abt 3.30 we went home saw flora's msg
saying we LOST OUR GOLD BY 1 MARK
WTF. wats wif the judges lah and worst of all
they decieded to give the gold to woodgroove that to us
just cause we look scared. wats even worst is that the 1st few days
they anyhow give the gold.
I HATE HUMAN ERROR!
cause of human error of giving the gold so open on the first few days
cause us to not have the gold.
maybe gold to them no big deal
but to us IT IS VERY VERY VERY BIG!
no point grumbling already lah it is already done
later i become old woman

cause daddy did not allow me to go cc
so meet flora, shijie, cassandra and xiner at tm
BOUGHT APPLE PIE FOR FLORA!
then we bought tickets to watch
" MEET THE ROBINSON" at cs
at abt 3.30 so before that went to eat lunch
[ that was a bad lunch for me] and went to take prints.
they took a long time to draw and design the prints
so me and shijie was taking picture and acting cute
inside the 'machine box'[ nv put money lah].
by the time they were done it was already 3.45.
get into the cinema, nobody one
and it is playing mickey mouse we started watching
and laughing after awhile then we wonder are we in the right cinema.
when the show starts i did not even realise i still sillyly go ask xiner
the show start already ah.. think of it, quite stupid ah.
overall the show was funny. xiner left.
then went the 2nd floor toliet saw this woman
she fell asleep in a public sofa which is in the toliet. HAHAHA
i think we made a lot of noise so she woke up and left
started taking picture in the toliet dun noe wat happen
cass got angry and say she wanna leave but in less then 10ses she came back
hahahahahahah. after that went to tm to walk walk cause i didn't want to go
home. went to toy'r'us and buy present for jiayi[my sis].
there is this stupid toy cat who scared me. i am scared of cats even more now.

i feel like saying this
SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME AND I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS IT!!!! argh!

After so many days, i think its time for me to accept it
although i am not happy with the results cause i feel
it is so damn unfair.
but i am proud to say SACCO GOT A SILVER FOR SYF.
i had been thinking for a long time, why didn't the judges
give the gold to us? where went wrong? why was the judges unfair to us?
thursday, which is after syf the next day
i felt insulted insulted by elean ng
cause when i was telling jeannette that i practised very hard
but why didn't we get the gold. but elean ng just butted into
the conversation saying" are you sure you practised very hard?
then why is mr boo saying you play until very lan."
but i really got lian okay you fucker did you even use your fucking
head to think before asking? or do you have a brain in your head?
i tried my best already okay!
i went back to think if i did not go for syf maybe sacco will do better?
was it because of me? on the other hand i know that the judges was unfair
to us too. but wat gave them a chance to be unfair to us? i dun noe
i felt very confused and everything.
i feel that i have let down to my seniors cause i know the best farewell
present for them was that gold.
i remember on our way there everybody was so excited they even
say we are going there to collect our gold.
but on our way back to school everybody was like crying.
seriously i dun want to think abt it but some how it can't get out of my mind
it keeps running thu my head. i just hope everything can stop for a day
just like good friday where everything can stop and let me enjoy my day
which i very very long didn't have already!
why do i have a feeling that this term will be getting even worst for me?
i am sorry to have the thought of not going for cca anymore.
i am really very sorry. i had beem doing very irrational things lately.
sorry to my friend and everybody who i had shown attitude, my emoing,
or maybe i had spoiled your mood.