After so many days, i think its time for me to accept it
although i am not happy with the results cause i feel
it is so damn unfair.
but i am proud to say SACCO GOT A SILVER FOR SYF.
i had been thinking for a long time, why didn't the judges
give the gold to us? where went wrong? why was the judges unfair to us?
thursday, which is after syf the next day
i felt insulted insulted by elean ng
cause when i was telling jeannette that i practised very hard
but why didn't we get the gold. but elean ng just butted into
the conversation saying" are you sure you practised very hard?
then why is mr boo saying you play until very lan."
but i really got lian okay you fucker did you even use your fucking
head to think before asking? or do you have a brain in your head?
i tried my best already okay!
i went back to think if i did not go for syf maybe sacco will do better?
was it because of me? on the other hand i know that the judges was unfair
to us too. but wat gave them a chance to be unfair to us? i dun noe
i felt very confused and everything.
i feel that i have let down to my seniors cause i know the best farewell
present for them was that gold.
i remember on our way there everybody was so excited they even
say we are going there to collect our gold.
but on our way back to school everybody was like crying.
seriously i dun want to think abt it but some how it can't get out of my mind
it keeps running thu my head. i just hope everything can stop for a day
just like good friday where everything can stop and let me enjoy my day
which i very very long didn't have already!
why do i have a feeling that this term will be getting even worst for me?
i am sorry to have the thought of not going for cca anymore.
i am really very sorry. i had beem doing very irrational things lately.
sorry to my friend and everybody who i had shown attitude, my emoing,
or maybe i had spoiled your mood.